Dear jock:

The best legacy I hope for is that after I die someone will say that I was a loving person.

I used to dream a long time ago of being Rich and Famous. I dreamed of performing (singing, dancing, acting… none for which I have a talent) in front of thousands of cheering people, a huge audience; my performances being broadcast on TV all over the world. In my mind’s eye, I saw people standing, cheering me. Oh, I was so hungry for attention, so starving to be seen. I thought I needed the whole world’s attention while all along all I needed was the love of … just one person.

I dreamed of world wide fame because I was so lonely, unloved, afraid and hurt for so very long.

So if I could love just one person who wasn’t loved before, then I have done the most important thing in the world.

anita