@anita

I have asked her what is the reason that you don’t have those feelings for me,
She has just started her hectic schedule and the work,and her studies taking a lot toll on her,
Actually since after i came back home after i lost the job,that job was too important for us because we were together at work hours too and were very close and happy at that time,
But after loosing that job,I kindof lost my confidence and self steem and i didn’t handel that situation in constructive way,I don’t know why,But she hold on to me ,always trying to encourage me,suport me in every way possible
I guess it was too hard for her to see me wasting my time and u guess at that moment wheb i was not taking her and our life and relation seriously she was too in Pain.
But for last 3 months i started to recover,and I started to support her in every possible way i could,
BUT i even shared my problems and concern that she didn’t talk to me the way she used to,And i can understand you are in lot of pressure because your job,
But we always sort it out, But at christmas eve,She said she can not adjust with me now anymore,and also that she is adjusting from our college times,and she just cannot feel the way she used to feel for me,after that i told her i am not ready to give up,she said okay,but after that she became cold and harsh.
And last sunday she told me she is sufficating from this relation, I am supporting her in every point of her life like she did and i used to,and she does not have any feelings left for me, i said i love you,and she said i know ,but she didn’t.
I told her you take your time.
She said okay,and asked me i wait for her i said always.
And she wait for me too when i set my career.
But yesterday she told me i can’t give commitment that i will wait for youbor not.
And she said even after taking time,her feelings and decision will remain same then what, I said i’ll try again.
Then she told me that if she realised that this is a mistake ,breaking up with me,Then she calls back otherwise she will never call me back.
And till then she doesnot want to talk.
I told her if this is youb want and wish for then be it.
I think she just got confused with her future plans and career,that I am just not important to her anymore, I think the way i treated her when i was not in my right mind, I broke her heart .too and all those anger frustation , and not work and career stress leads to this.
And now its over,and the more i tried to make everything right, the worst my relationship get.
We were too happy together,It is hard to give up on her,but i can not do anything now,
She is not going to understand ever now ‘cuz she doesn’t want to and she do not want to try she does not want to be with the guy who gives love a lot more importance than anything,who is not practical.
I am just broke now ‘cuz at age if 24 not only i have to start career from zero ,But i lost the most importabt person and support of my life and i couldn’t do anything to have her back.
It is just getting too hard to bear