Dear hurts:

You asked what makes you so driven to him? I think it is your need to be loved that drives you to him, only what you are getting is sex, not love.

When you have sex with him… you feel wanted by him, don’t you? Being wanted … for any reason, feels like love. When he has sex with you, he touches you. Being touched nicely feels like love. When he calls you so to have sex with you, you know he wants to be with you. That feels like love.

So I am not surprised you are drawn to him, drawn to him as a source of love. And in absence of a man/ a person who truly loves you, you are drawn to what feels closest to love.

Am I correct? Please do post more… more about what love would mean to you, how you would know you are loved?

anita