Thank you for the congratulations! Honestly, I think you’re right. But I feel bad to think of her as abusive and cruel, even though she was extremely emotionally abusive. I never thought I’d beg a girl not to break up with me over 6 times, put up with all the insults and mean things said. She was great but had the tendency to be cruel. I guess I just don’t understand what her concept of love must have been. Because it doesn’t seem like she loved me the same way I loved her. But at other times, it seems that she did love me. It’s confusing actually.
I’ll take your advice about choosing a girlfriend. I really don’t think I can ever go at relationships completely naive and unguarded eer again. If I ever notice any of these attributes even if she was great in many other ways I’ll now it’s just not what I want.. I also may add that when it got to the point where we would insult each other back in forth I said some hurtful things too. I’ve called her an ass hole, selfish, mean. But she’s generally always proceeded first with the abusive behavior before I reached that point of insulting her which is just as bad on my part.
Would you suggest that I just pretend like she doesn’t exist and in that sense “forget” about her? Before my nephew was born back in August she bought him clothes to wear. Anyways I didn’t dress him in those, but it really bothered me that she didn’t bother telling me congratulations or anything. I just feel like I’ve been through way too much with this person, that the fact that I need to pretend she doesn’t exist, that nothing ever happened feels extremely wrong in a sense. But it’s what she wants, and I can’t keep trying to be around someone that wants to be alone.
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