Hi again,
At first, I am sorry but I could not understant every thing you have tried to pass through. Any way, I would like to say that you feel too excitement about negative things.. events… people…
Stop doing that rightnow and start to fill your time with working.. going out.. practicing s thing… you r strong.. you do not need any one to help u. If you lose appreciation your self, no one will appreciate or accept u.
An entire water of the sea can’t sink a ship unless it gets inside the ship.
Forget your past.. u live right now ,If you thik that what I say is impossible, you will ever never develop your life .
Do not be vulnerable..
Regard to your important test I think you should work so hard firstly, then try once more.
I guess u could pass it .
There is no borders. no limits. no obstacles in life.. they just live in our mind
Cheers