Anita..

A..I m in that stage of life where backround doesnt matter much but ones achievements do.. So i hav made my peace wid that..it was a problem in childhood which shaped my behaviour into the habit of ego projection and info management..and thats the problem.the habit is the problem.

B.. Because of ths habit..i crave fr appreciation and project an image of self.ehich evryone does to fit in society.but i do it more conciously and project one image tht is unblemished..at times i myself start believing the chatacter…and forget the real issues. Ths produces misalignment in my goals and the required efforts and i miss them.

I miss the goals as my focus always goes to being declared as the worthy aspirant of the goal by ppl..and not the goal itself. I love hearing he has a lot of potential arguement.if tht happens a powerful projection had been achieved.

C.. I think my goals they are itself determined by my image or ego needs. They invaraibly point to recognition,status,prestige and appreciation socially… So i want to confirm is it wat i really want frm inside..or My goals are my needs to furthur my social identity.

Lastly. I hav taken 3 days out to figure out ths stuff..thts why the desperation and detailed info in the post. Please dont mind.

I m an analyzer .. I like this.

I kno its complicated but is my way f life .