Very correct anita..not only it is choking my authenticity..it is affecting my goals and my perception of life.

Also i wnat to get out if it as it is consuming. But here ur point f me being my authentic self in doing so(which u made in 1 st reply)…made sense..

Are these social needs…needs of my authentic self. Is its deep desire to b loved and appreciated making me do all these things..and eventually choking me.

I m willing to consider all viewpoints to rewire my life.

Talking to u is revealing anita.
I m trying to make it simple..forgive mistakes.