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Dear Wisdom:
“Who could really know anything about anything”? I do. I know something about something. And so do you. You know things. You only wish you knew the things you really, really want to know. The questions that haunt you: those you want to know so to have peace. And I know some of the answers to the questions that haunt you and wrote to you what they are, but my answers don’t bring you peace and even distress you, so you didn’t accept them.
I will give you an example: you don’t know if you and this guy are destined to live together in love. You feel destiny is real but you are not sure. And you are often frustrated and depressed waiting for destiny to do its thing, to come true.
I don’t believe in destiny but I don’t know it, that is: I can’t prove some sort of destiny does not exist and maybe some form of it does. What I do know is the following:
It is not working for the benefit of Wisdom to believe AND wait for destiny to bring her and that guy together.
This is what I know and the evidence for it is all over this very thread, evident in your own writings! Even in this post you wrote: “I feel like i’m not supposed to have anything exciting or good. i don’t know.’ – so not only you are depressed about the idea that you are not supposed to have anything exciting or good in your life but you don’t know, meaning, on top of being depressed you are also confused.
You being depressed and confused again and again means that believing in destiny and waiting for it to get you and the guy to live together in love is not working for you- and that I know. So, I do know something about something.
I am suggesting to you, Wisdom, to go on believing in destiny if you want and need to. I am also suggesting for you to not rely on it, to place that belief in destiny in a corner of your mind (so if it will be, it will be) and no longer wait for it, no longer expect it, no longer focus on it. Clear up your brain space from what is not working for you.
Wisdom in kindergarten in April then.
anita