Sorry I am writing again: But I thought it be nice to add,

When I went abroad I fell in love with the city I went to, I felt like it was my life and my decision. But little as I know it; I did not change my ways and I still fell for unhealthy relationships. But I felt like I was creating something for myself. Now I am not so sure if I need to be here anymore, as I know it is the inside that needs to come out.

What if I had the chance to do so in the relationship – take a long and hard look at myself and stay present. What if I wanted to run away from it – to something else. Again.