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August 13, 2022 at 5:14 pm #405413
I don’t think I need much more physio now, I can throw things in the air and not feel the pain anymore. Not much to write about for me…losing lots of weight, me and that friend made up after I appologized several times(it was all me but that thread is done) and we still calling eachother, um playing video games with a buddy from work, gonna be doing more excercise. My heavybag stand should be here next week (the 19th). Trying to turn my life around, certain events (you know what) made me realize it’s time I change my life around. Last couple days I feel super hyper, like everything is moving in fast motion. I definatly have no problems getting people to like me as I am trying to be genuine more and more and I talk like a race horse to everyone, my goal is to be out in the streets talking to girls like I should be. Life is short so make friends, talk to girls, get in shape, get happy and treat people with respect.July 6, 2022 at 8:44 pm #403551
Goodbnight anita, and thanks for everything. I got my other thread to get to sometime.July 6, 2022 at 8:43 pm #403550
Ok 1 final thing…i got friend dumped from someone I have known nearly 20 years via a text message. I requested her call me and talk about this but when I called her she blocked me after, then apparently unblocked me. I know she blocked me because the text did not say delivered, it was blank under, then my goodbye message an hour later I said goodbye forever and blocked her but she unblocked me for that message.
I don’t even get a courtesy of a hard phone call to end things after everything. Even I did hard phone calls…nearly 20 years and all I get is a “I can’t commit to this friendship anymore” and blocked after I tried calling her. Was I that toxic to her or was she just that upset?July 6, 2022 at 4:36 pm #403545
Ehhhh I think we should let this thread die now lol, it’s officially over because of me. Brought it back because I wanted to tell you what happened. It’s UNBELIEVABLY painful to know that I lost her because I caused her so much hurt and pain. Hurts losing a friend because she was so hurt and could not face me over the phone, I gotta live with that pain for the rest of my life and she does not want to ever have any contact with me ever again by her message.July 5, 2022 at 8:26 pm #403508
Oops “it doesn’t feel good when you don’t feel good because of my slow replies etc”.July 5, 2022 at 8:20 pm #403507
I’ll try to have a good night, you as well.
Hopefully we understand, but I still think she’s upset I stopped reaching out to her. She’s not willing to reach out with me for whatever reason but wanted me to text and call her still (which is confusing because people say she hasn’t been interested in me??). She was really interested in me so she would reach out when I vanished, then she got a guy and moved away with him and things changed. Wanted me to still keep in touch, but I slowly stopped when I noticed she was giving me less friendship energy and started complaining more and getting frusterated because she would text me back pretty quickly and we would text in the morning and it stopped. I then found out her guy and her split up and I messaged her if everything was ok with her? and we hit it off there again. Lots of texts, phone calls, saw eachother a few times including her surprising me wanting to see me the day before we were going to hang out. Then a few months later I decided that was enugh and she seemed fine so I said to her at the end of the phone call “Ok see you later i’ll message you in a few months”, she said in an upset voice “no! message and call me and i’ll message and call you!”, that was basically the beginning of the end…once I said that i’ll message her in a few months things kinda went woop!
Still getting annoyed I gotta wait an entire day to get a text back from her while she’s on facebook messaging people and made her feel bad about it, said sorry and she slowly started delaying the phone calls. One time she “forgot”, other times “not feeling up to it today”, or she would call me suuuuper late. So she was annoyed with the text thing and annoyed with me vanishing for months, but she could have easily text or called me anytime, even told her as much. Then the final straw was when I got annoyed and said I didn’t really wanna hang out anyway and I would see her in the summer time.
But that’s what I think, could be wrong but don’t think I am. I am pretty smart at these things even if I am such a feminine guy (which is bad…a man has to be masculine). Maybe 1 day in the faaaaaarrrrrr future I will reach out and say hello, but she ended things so she must have been THAT hurt, especially since it was a text and not a phone call. She even said as much in her text “it doesn’t feel good when it doesn’t feel good because of my slow replies etc”.July 5, 2022 at 4:20 pm #403504
Today was….emotional at work. My god! She’s blocked but maybe 1 day many many years from now if I think about her I will message her that I hope she’s doing well or I will see her walking around. Or would that be creepy?
Man this hurts…manager at my work that was tight with her told me maybe it’s not even about me, maybe she just needs to move on for a while and when she’s ready she will reach out in a few months, but I said yeah it’s most likely over now. People at my work are confused why it was a text and block and no phonecall…manager agrees with me it was because she probably could not handle a phone call due to being upset and found this way easier.July 4, 2022 at 10:39 pm #403485
I’ll try. Not that upset anymore…I am pretty sure I know why this happened and it has nothing to do with what she said, she’s upset I go months not keeping in touch with her and she’s tired of me coming in and out of her life when she just wants me in it. Like I said, she’s gotten upset I go months not “keeping in touch”, but I vanish because she doesn’t do anything, she can text or call too but she never does and expects me to do it all. I CAN’T DO IT ALL!!! she once said “I message you when you dissapear” and when I said I’ll talk to you next summer one time (it would have been like 11 months) she said “if that’s what you want..i’ll be around just message me”.
Like I said, it has nothing to do with the filler fluff she posted, it’s because I don’t keep in touch anymore and that message of not wanting to hang out with her and see you in the summer was the last straw, I guess she had an emotional reaction to it and had a talk with someone on what to do and there was an agreement to let me go. She could not do it via phone because it was too painful for her so a text and block was the easiest thing to do and she can run away like she always does when a problem arises. She should have told me “I can’t be friends with you if you are always going to vanish”, instead she did nothing and this happened and I presume it was really hard for her because that 1 summer and how close we became when her and her guy split.
I lost a friend for a really dumb reason, but oh well she done for good.July 4, 2022 at 8:08 pm #403480
Happy Independence Day!July 4, 2022 at 7:51 pm #403478
Well, anyway this thread is done. Yeah I was a little obsessed, but I used to like talking on the phone with her until she changed. I wished her well and said glad she was ok from that 1 summer and this different incident I helped her in and I dunno what I did but I assume someone told you to drop me, wasn’t the first time and I said goodbye forever and blocked her. She blocked me so she wont read it anyway.July 4, 2022 at 7:13 pm #403475
Oops I hit the report button.July 4, 2022 at 7:12 pm #403473
I was getting emotional for a while because after everything we had been through…I am STILL totally confused what just happened. But I miss the old her, not this lieing her… Pretty sure that ex of hers told her to just drop me. she changed quite a bit and not in a good way IMO. But this was only a friendship end for ME, so it was quite personal for her, she said “I can’t commit to this friendship anymore”, like you said about not able to commit talking in this thread anymore because we talked about everything. Pretty sure that means she’s never going to try another attempt down the line, what do you think? I know she hates when I “dissapear” for months at a time, she once said “no text and call me and I will text and call you” with an annoyed tone, but I do what I want because she refuses to even spend 10 seconds out of her day and send 1 text message like she did in the past or even 1 phone call.
I dunno what I even did to her and I never will…she could not even do this over the phone like an adult but a TEXT message.July 4, 2022 at 6:23 pm #403469
BTW just an update to Anita…she ended the friendship over a TEXT message. I reached out to her and she was ignoring me, had a work buddy interviene because I was worried about her and she said my “ok then” text was a little snotty (she was ignoring me though) and sent a long text telling me she can’t give me what I want and feels bad when I feel bad over slow text, etc, that she’s working on herself and has no time for friendship with me anymore.June 23, 2022 at 9:01 pm #402971
Hey, I am still doing my physio but 1 less day every 2 weeks. My next plan is to buy a boxing stand and a heavy bag and start punching that while I get into shape. Not much to say…have some MMA gloves I bought off amazon. I need a change in my life so i will try changing to what my thoughts are trying to say to me.April 12, 2022 at 8:13 pm #397745
Thanks. I am covid free now, tomorrow going back to work and looking forward to it since I am slowly losing my mind and going insane stuck at home. I’ll update more stuff in the summer sometime. Hope you’re doing good.
BTW I played very little games…felt like death.