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July 26, 2022 at 12:37 am in reply to: Any tips in how to solve communication problems? #404578
Thank you for your concern about me…
You can make a loving relationship happen in your life when you (1) Avoid emotional reasoning, (2) Accept your feelings instead of hating them and fighting them, and (3) Put purpose into your actions, (4) Focus on your strengths, not on your weaknesses.
= Right now i’m in the state of convincing my mind that she has lost interest in me, and my mind seem to obey it….
Regarding accepting my feelings, i’ve decided to look at her stories and posts again instead of muting it, but i wont text her ever again…. Because even if i muted her i still keep wondering and the outcome is the same, so it’s pointless…
Tbh liking her is one of the greatest mistake i ever did in my life, it really disrupts my mind and giving me lots of anxiety….. Because she’s a girl with a bit of coquettish attitude and has attention seeking traits…. So for a guy who used to have a romantic bond with her, it’ll be hard to move on….
Just like how today i saw her posting a selfie on her instagram stories…. In that selfie, as usual she writes a caption that for me seems like “attention seeking”… Every time i saw her posting related to her appearance, i’ll get triggered easily and get mad… i feel like i need to be better than her… and tbh i still feel that way… The difference is that i can convince my mind now that i’m going to find another girl instead of waiting for her… and yes i did use the NPR method here…
I also wont post any stories with lame jokes or something like that anymore, i’m done with doing those kind of things to impress her…. Right now i’ll post stories to impress other girls…
Few days ago i went to a temple, i pray so that i will be guided to the right path of my relationship life,
because everyday i struggle with anxiety due to this…. I hope i can overcome this “relationship phase”
I pray that i’d be given an easier path to meet the right person that i’ll marry one day…. And i hope it’ll be someone that i really in love with… and vice versa…
And also you said that i need to focus on my strengths, i feel like i’m still not good at communicating with people… and i feel like i need to improve it…. Because i never dated anyone in real life…. my only experience is texting by phone…
Tbh sometimes i’m also grateful for all the life lessons that i’ve learnt till now…. I can manage my emotions better now. I just hope that all the anxiety i’m feeling everyday could be reduced little by little….July 19, 2022 at 10:15 pm in reply to: Any tips in how to solve communication problems? #404274
It’s been 2 weeks since i open this website….
Regarding the girl i’m obsessed with, today i muted her posts and stories on instagram so i’ll not see any of her life… and i bet she’ll also notice how i stop viewing her stories….
Few days ago i keep posting stories to impress her, creating stories with lousy captions because she likes lame jokes…. I did this only to impress her… but i realize if i keep doing this… all the other girls will feel un attracted to me with those lame jokes who i might be with instead of her…..
I think it’s for the best…. If i muted her so that i can cut off every hope with her…. It’s really hard, but i dont want to act like a fool and keep posting that kind of stories only to impress her… when she didnt even reply me….. I dont want to waste any more time with her….. it’s been a year after the separation and i still have thoughts about her…. I really want to cut those feelings…. I’m so so disappointed in myself…..
Whenever i have thoughts about her, i cant focus on my life… all i’m thinking is that she’s the future for me…. And it’s insane if i keep thinking that way…. Starting today i’ll kill all those hopes….
I hope i can find someone better than her, regardless of my insecurities and weaknesses…
Also these past few weeks i have several conversations with people older than me, and i realized that relationships are much bigger than i thought it’d be…. I always thought if both parties love each other and there’s no quarrel, its enough…..
But i was wrong….
Both must have the same core value, clear vision and mindset for the future,
All of it must align….
The more i think of it, finding the right person is a really hard task….July 2, 2022 at 5:52 am in reply to: Any tips in how to solve communication problems? #403365
As a person who’s more experienced in life than me.
Do you believe the phrase that “soulmates will eventually end up together”?July 2, 2022 at 1:59 am in reply to: Any tips in how to solve communication problems? #403363
a person with a strong heart is way more capable to lead (oneself and other people) than a person with a weak heart who can draw and play badminton well. The stronger your heart, the more it will naturally show on your face and body: it will show in the expressions of your face, in the way you look at people, in the sound of your voice, in the words you use, in the posture of your body, and in the ways you move your body. It would be nothing that you will be faking, it will be the natural consequences of having a strong heart.
Yes you are right, i can feel that i’m getting a stronger heart in myself….. I start to enjoy communicating, learning new things, realize that time is important, how my brain works,
How i wish that i can have this version of myself 5 years ago….. I’m sure things would have been totally different, and maybe i’d take different choices which might end up me being happier than now…..
I was a very very insecure person in that period, i always prefer to be in my comfort zone….
I really struggle communicating in uni, if i have this version of me…. I’m sure i’ll be more proactive in uni, connect with more people, make new friends, gain more exciting experience….
Because i feel that uni is the last period where we can approach people easily…..
But then i remember your words in the previous thread:
“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference”.
Since my high school days, i’ve always wanted most of the scenarios and fantasy’s in my brain to happen in my life, but none of it happen……
My uni life isnt fun as i was expecting, i didnt get a girlfriend, and my life now is very monotone…… I guess we shouldn’t expect too much in life…. I’ll only cause heartbreak…… As painful as it is, i’ll still keep striving for a better tomorrow….June 30, 2022 at 8:56 pm in reply to: Any tips in how to solve communication problems? #403320
Thank you for always trying to convince me that i’m worthy.
I also hope that i can realize that soon. But i’m improving day by day….
Maybe it’s due to me focusing on comparing the “difficulty level of her and me”
Like my difficulty level is 10 times harder than her, whereas for her, with that appearance… she can just sway her beauty or change her outfit into a more coquettish style and eventually some boys will take the bait…June 30, 2022 at 8:01 pm in reply to: Any tips in how to solve communication problems? #403316
Today i woke up, and idk why suddenly i felt like i get a slap from reality… that i need to finally have some acceptance to let go of that girl, and this heartbreak is part of life.
These past few days i’ve been waking up in the middle of the night due to overthinking about that girl, like 3-4 times… and it’s making my body less fit than normal. I feel that it’s bad for my health.
a leader in one own’s life does not wait for another person, at least, not for long. A leader doesn’t stand behind anyone, waiting for the person in front to make the first move. A leader is in the front, making first moves.
These few sentences you sent me, also play a part on making me realize… that i’ve been trying to accustomed my life into following hers… whereas a person who wants to lead their own life shouldn’t do that.
I think it’s due to me feeling that myself isnt worth that much, i’m a person with less quality…. And she’s the closest person to ever love me than anyone…. I did everything for her, i tried everything but still it didn’t work out….
I even prayed at a temple so i can be together with her, i asked my closest friends for tips, i really really did everything.
I keep having deep talks with myself, and i guess i saw her as a person more worthy, more better in appearance, more qualities than me…. And when she tells me that she has feelings for me… i suddenly feel good for myself… that’s why i never hesitate to go all out for her….
I never met her in person for the past 4 years, sometimes i’m confused why i desperately want someone i never met for that long, idk whether this is love, lust, or an obsession…
but what i know is that she has an appearance of my type…. And im obsessed with that, i dont want other people to have her.
Also this girl doesn’t really have any specific hobby or whatsoever, that’s why i feel like she’s an easier target than other girls that i find having good qualities…. Because i feel that i’m good for nothing…. I tried drawing i cant, i tried badminton i cant, i was never really good at something… Due to that “easy” trait, i feel that it’s better to go all out for her instead of forcing myself to improve because i know with all my capabilities i cant be really good at anything…. But tbh with all my qualities right now… it’s really really hard for me to get a girl that i want…. nonetheless i’ll still try my best.
I think it’s also my fault because before that separation, with my “calculations” i feel that if i keep texting her will have a better probability than me improving myself to be a charming guy… shockingly she really has feelings for me (at least that’s what she said that time)…. But circumstance says otherwise.
As you said in the previous thread, i’m too isolated, lack of social support… yes that’s absolutely true, but i really cant help with the situation im in… because the reality is that, i’ve been given this kind of situation… But still day by day i’m developing a stronger heart, so i can bear with the pain of this world….
My motto right now is that i’ll aim for a better tomorrow… Although it seems that i keep having gloomy thoughts everyday, but i also feel that i keep getting improvements day by day….June 27, 2022 at 8:58 pm in reply to: Any tips in how to solve communication problems? #403138
As far as what is going on in the girl’s (young woman’s) brain: I don’t know and neither do you. You know what she told you in the past, but was she sincere about everything that she told you? Plus, just like your moods and thoughts change, so do hers. Therefore, what she sincerely told you in the past may not apply to the present time.. or to the future time.
Yes that’s what i thought too… people could drastically change in 4 years. That’s why i think it’s too risky to wait, and she could also end up meeting someone who she might feel better than me….
Also i’m sure she aims to work in a corporate company when she graduated later on…. And i feel like i don’t wanna lose out to her. But i cant really improve much in terms of career as i’m helping my parents whereas she’ll aim on climbing the ladder in the corporate. I feel like if i can improve how i work, maybe someday if i want her, i can persuade her to live with me….
Because i also imagine a scenario where i can’t find girls im suitable with for the next 4-5 years and maybe i’d try my luck in chasing her again.
Do u think this is a pointless way of thinking? It sounds like i still hope for her is it?
I’ll still try to date other girls, i just feel like there’s no negative impact if i try to make my life better than her…. right?
At that time i’ll be 27-28 years old, it’s not considered old right? I’m a person who’s really afraid of deadlines (i also never do my assignments very close to the deadline day on my uni days as i feel unsafe), and i feel like 30 years old is a deadline, as i’m sure most of my friends would be married by then but at the same time i also don’t want to marry the wrong person due to rush….I experience lots of mistakes due to rush and afraid of not following the pace of my friends. I guess i need to get rid of this way of thinking, because it makes me cant relax…. and comparing other people’s pace with me…
Of course it’s better that you don’t waste time, and that you date other girls.
I can see that you can fall in love with another woman, it’s just the lack of meeting and interacting with young women that are behind your repeated focus on this one girl,
Yes, i really need to find a way for me to interact and meet with young women….
But there isnt much activity in my city here, only badminton and golf… and i’m not good at both of it, also i tend to give up easily if i find things hard. Maybe i should just force myself to do those activities, as there is no other choice?
The only thing I’m doing right now is going to the gym, and i’m not good at it…. My body hasn’t improved at all too…. But at least going to the gym fills my schedule which causes me to overthink less….June 24, 2022 at 11:10 am in reply to: Any tips in how to solve communication problems? #402993
I hope that what i’m saying above doesn’t sound repetitive with my previous replies.June 24, 2022 at 11:05 am in reply to: Any tips in how to solve communication problems? #402992
Sorry for replying late… i was out of town for a work reasons with my parents.
Yes i’m feeling much better now,
there is no progress without regression: there is no such thing as going only forward, never to go backward. When I understood this, I no longer got devastated with every regression and I managed to hold on to some of the progress I made.
Ahh i see, i think that’s a good theory to convince my mind….. “no progress without regression”
But the things is, sometimes we can’t control our mind….. if we have negative thoughts it’s really hard to gain control of it…. and immediately forget every progress that we made…..
Our mood could also affect these kind of issues, if we’re in a good mood, maybe the negative thoughts are easier to control….
As regarding for that girl, i re-read TeaK’s advices on my other account….
– it seems she strengthened the decision not to date you, and it’s not only because of her parents’ pressure/advice, but also because she feels that’s for the best. She wants to enter a relationship when she is ready and has serious intentions (she said when she finds a job, and when she is thinking about getting married), and right now that’s not the case.
It seems that right now she wants to focus on her studies and not be distracted by a relationship, and it’s a legitimate decision. That’s what she’s already told you before, but when you posted that “goodbye” post, probably her ego got a bit hurt and she started the cycle again, messing up with you, giving you hope. She shouldn’t have done that. But she’s young and no wonder she has doubts and insecurity. Try to forgive her for giving you false hope…
But also, take this as her final decision and start detaching yourself from her, accepting that she’s at the same point where you were 4 or 5 years ago, just entering university, with a million opportunities before her and at least a dozen possible life scenarios. What will be 4 or 5 years from now? No one knows. So there is no point in holding onto something that’s not there, that’s unknown, that will only take shape in the future… Leave the future to the future, and if you want, to God and fate. But don’t hold on to it, don’t hold on to something that doesn’t have a shape yet.
– She probably isn’t, that’s why she decided not to pursue a relationship with you. The person who initiates the break is never as nearly as sad as the one left behind. That’s the nature of breakups… I guess her feelings for you were less than yours for her, otherwise her parents couldn’t influence her so much. Because you said they didn’t really forbid her to date you, but only advised against it. But she readily accepted their advice, and even told you she doesn’t want a long-distance relationship, with your visiting her from time to time. If she cared about you enough and didn’t want to lose you, she would have been open for a LDR, to be able to get you know you better, face to face.
I too was in a LDR for 5 years, meeting my now husband approx. once per month. You two will be living only 45 minutes apart, it’s nothing. But she refused that, which means she doesn’t really want to deepen the relationship with you and get to know you better.
I think that you should accept the fact that she’s just not that into you, even if she’s told you differently. Her actions and her attitude (rejecting a LDR) speak more than her words…
I don’t think it would benefit you to hope and pray for you two getting together. It would only prevent you from finding someone else, someone better… You yourself are very young, she is your first crush, your whole relationship happened online, so it wasn’t even a real relationship since you didn’t really go on dates, have you? I dare to say that you practically haven’t experienced a real relationship yet.
You say you’re madly in love, but you haven’t even held her hand, have you? You are in love with an image of her, and also with the feeling you had while interacting with her: you felt appreciated, you felt someone values you and shows interest in you. You desperately needed this kind of attention – positive attention – from people, because you haven’t received it from your parents. She provided it for you, and it made you feel loved.
But it doesn’t mean she is the one for you. There are other girls out there who might like you and appreciate you, and want to go on dates with you, and even plan a future with you. You’re only at the beginning. 22 years is super young. As I told you once before, even at 32 you’ll still be young. You’ve got 10 years to work on yourself and find a suitable girl. There is no rush.
After re-reading this, i feel calmer….. i’ve already screenshotted this on my phone but i always forgot to read it whenever i have thoughts about this girl…..
Then i decided to re-read again my past conversation with that girl….
Now i understand why she doesnt want a relationship yet (i can’t believe that i understand her situation now, instead of a year ago…. all i have in my head was only about loving her… and not realizing her situation)
She keeps telling me that she has several aunts who ended up in a bad marriage, she felt a bit traumatized seeing that… and she also told me her family keeps having issues with her relatives….. That’s why she told me that she views relationship as something serious and not some “fun thing for teens”…. She wants a relationship with someone who’s personality she understands fully, and in my case…. we only talk through online, and she’s entering uni which will make us in a “LDR situation” for 45 minutes apart by boat…. She feels that in LDR, she wont be able to know the guy’s personality fully…..
She also told me that her family’s financial situation arent as lucky as mine, therefore she has to attend uni seriously…. as she applies on a scholarship…. and she feels that if she gets a good job in that place which is apart from mine, it’d be hard for us to be together….
She ever told me that she has plans on finding me in the future *although idk if she still have thoughts of this after a year of no contact with me (if i’m still single) when she has her own income….. but it’s still many years from now…. as she’ll graduate uni on 2025, which is 3 years from now…. And also she needs to find out if she can get a job in that city or not, if she can’t then she’ll go back to our city…..
The one that’s making me insane is that my brain keeps wondering whether she still have thoughts about me, also wondering whether there’s a possibility of me and her being together again in the future…. But at the same time i also feel like i shouldn’t waste all of my time only waiting for her, i also must try dating other girls…… And yeah i’ll try it, with hope that eventually i can forget about her if i found the correct type for me
But there are also things that i hate about her, although she told me that she doesn’t want a relationship and etc… she sometimes posted stories/posts on social media as if she wants attention from people….
I feel like i need to hurry up and improve my confidence and self-esteem, because right now my head keeps telling me that she’s (my type) the best that i can get…. (and i’ve been fighting this voice everyday). I need to get out from this endless loop. She’s been in my head for lots of years….
I really want to be able to lead my own life, because i know that as i grow older… it’s essential for me to keep improving myself…..
I’ve been on good track before she posted that song, she really knows how to messed up my head…..
I dont want to feel any more painful regret which causes me to bang my head, and she’s one of the factors why i did that….
Tbh when i’m out of the city few days ago with my parents, i went to the mall and saw several girls and i felt my heart beating faster than usual, it’s like the moment when i feel like i’m attracted to that girl….. I feel really relieved that i can still feel that way, i always thought that i’ll only be madly in love with that girl (whom i’ve crush on for a long time)….. But i never felt that feeling in my city since i graduated….. I think it’s due to i rarely met girls in my city……
I keep praying that whatever my decision is/whatever action im taking from now, it’ll be the best outcome for me……June 19, 2022 at 12:02 am in reply to: Any tips in how to solve communication problems? #402605
Thank you for your advices,
Setting aside what we’re discussing above…..
Yesterday I re-read my past texts with that girl…. I can’t stop thinking of her singing that song….. I feel that i know her, and that song is meant for me…… I feel really really depressed right now, Idk how to explain…. but im pretty sure this feeling is true…. I can’t really explain everything she texts me that time in here…. it’s too many…
I even have thoughts of initiating her a text, i want to conclude everything and try to win her again…
I tried the NPR, but it still got triggered, and yet i screamed again….
I apologize if maybe i sound like i dont take ur advices, or TeaK’s or anyone else’s…..
I’m in a really really depressed situation right now…. I probably need to think everything clearly and have some time alone…..June 17, 2022 at 10:20 pm in reply to: Any tips in how to solve communication problems? #402580
Yes i agree with you, we should never expect life to be fair.
What i’m confused is that, if we’re in the “unfair” position.. such as short height. Should we defy the odds or follow the world’s rules….
Like for ex: society tends to want boys to be taller than the girls….. there’s plenty of girls that i seem to notice having good qualities and can match my lifestyle…but most of them are the same height as me, i wanna try and have a go but i fear rejection…. cause it might disrupt my mental health….. because i’m sure if they have an “ok” appearance, like standard and above… they also will likely tend to want boys with a better looking appearance…..
But i also used to get close with a girl and it seem that she gives me a green light to get close to her….. but her appearance can be said as “below standard (i apologize if these sounds harsh, but idk how to explain it more clearly)”…. it’s like no boys wants to chase her therefore she’ll gladly accept anyone…. Eventually i stop texting her because i can’t seem to force myself to like her…..
This is what im confused on…..Should i just “man up” myself and try chasing those type of girls that i’m interested on…. or i should just accept reality and accept girls who’ll accept me….
Does this mean that i also have to train to handle rejection and criticism too, besides improving confidence?
Because if i got girls who’s the same height as me… i’m pretty sure some people will comment about that…. Nonetheless, the more and more i thought about it, especially after experiencing these past 2 years of self-development…. None of those words could really physically hurt me and i guess for this part it can be applied with the NPR strategy is it? But as we’re all human, we can’t always escape those sorrow words, sometimes we’ll eventually got hurt…June 15, 2022 at 11:20 am in reply to: Any tips in how to solve communication problems? #402463
The post above, which you submitted about 2.5 hours ago, is the most promising, the most encouraging post you ever wrote
= Thank you anita!, your words here puts a smile on my face…
patience and persistence are necessary when it comes to improving personal qualities. It takes work and time.
= Yes both of these are essential, especially patience….. because it applies not only to improve my qualities, but i also need patience to stay calm whenever other people are underestimate me and etc… I usually struggle in this part, obstacles like that could mess up my happy mind.
Yea i think it’s not about being an alpha, it’s more of being “a guy who knows what he’s doing and can lead his partner”, and not becoming a “useless” type of guy who can’t lead his own family later on….
Most girls i know labelled me as the “follower” type of guy, like i’m the guy who can’t lead….. Just following the group….
I’m working on this attitude……
I’m also trying my best to get rid of that girl (whom i have a crush on for a long time) from my head…… I can’t believe that when i saw her singing that song, i immediately pray so that she’d be my wife in the future, like there’d be a way for us to be together in the future…….. She’s always in my head since 5 or 6 years ago….. it’s really insane for an obsession……
Maybe it’s because i havent found a girl who’d appreciate me more than her….., therefore my brain is programmed that she’s still the best choice for me……
Most, if not all men, prefer to be of average height or taller, and short men too often get teased for their short height. It is sad that it is so, and I wish we lived in a world where men are not teased and disrespected for their short height (a world where people were not teased for any reason!). But you and I have to live in the world we live in, and do the best with how we look, and with what is available to us. You can’t grow taller but you can grow more confident, more muscular, more skillful at communicating with people and more skillful at doing tasks (“Like become an educated/good communicator, and confident in doing tasks”).
= Yep you are absolutely right, short men also get weak first impression… i’ve experience it numerous times….. This is why i’m aiming to be able to attract impression from them (such as girls)… I have to work more harder than average height boys here, and i’m pretty sure they wont understand my struggles….
And also i’m an introvert, it makes it way more harder for me to push myself to talk…..
Also, if the girl’s (this applies to every type of girl) main criteria is “average to tall boys”, then i’m done for…. there is nothing that i can do…… This is the unfair part about height criteria…..June 15, 2022 at 3:18 am in reply to: Any tips in how to solve communication problems? #402441
Yeah i’m also quite shocked that i still can make a sensible decision after all that messy thoughts in my head….
I think i still need to build my confidence, so that i wont be swayed by any of her posts…. because i still thought that she’s the best that i can get with my qualities…., therefore i’m aiming to improve my qualities more faster than before….
I’ve went to the gym after i get advices that exercising could reduce overthinking, and yes it does…. For a week i went like 4 times… But i still can’t feel that i become more “manly”….
And due to several situations in the gym, i’ve improved my communications skills a bit….
I feel like to be more confident and to cover my insecurities (like my height)… i need to be like some sort of “alpha male”, but idk if my body can create that “alpha aura”
Like become an educated/good communicator, and confident in doing tasks, become more manly (i used to spend most of my time relaxing at my room [this causes my bad communication skills and making me less manly…])
Do u agree with my statement?June 14, 2022 at 8:15 pm in reply to: Any tips in how to solve communication problems? #402439
I guess i’m going to revoke my decision on posting it.
I re-read our texts (me and her) before the separation and it prompted me into cancelling my decision… The advices from TeaK also influence me….
Maybe it’s just that i’m confused on why she posted her singing that song on social media… My head got messed up and it triggers me into falling for her again…June 14, 2022 at 9:37 am in reply to: Any tips in how to solve communication problems? #402415
I think i’d feel less regret if i push my limits for her.