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  • #293053

    Javairia
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    Dear anita

    Yes thank you a lot

    #293047

    Javairia
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    Dear anita,

    Thank you so much for the talk and listening it all. (Oh and I accidentally reported my own reply, so don’t worry it wasn’t inappropriate.. just wanted to let you know..)

    I got it, I’ll talk to our guidance counselor soon

    Thank you. Bless you

    Have a good life

    Greetings

    #293043

    Javairia
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    This reply has been reported for inappropriate content.

    Dear anita,

    Thank you so much for the talk and listening it all.

    I got it, I’ll talk to our guidance counselor soon

    Thank you. Bless you

    Have a good life

    Greetings

    #292973

    Javairia
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    Hi anita,

    No I don’t imitate her aggression. Not at others especially. I know how it feels like to be shouted at and have or witness fights, so I just avoid any little fight or argument ever as possible with others (but I do fight a bit with mother sometimes as every teenager would do). I only have anger issues with myself. I get angry at myself too often and harm myself.

    And I completely got your point you mentioned about my mother not taking consideration of us present through all drama. This was worse because she also kept involving us, making us leave home for days with her more than twice just because their fight got serious at that point. And I’ve also bore the responsibility of ‘good child’ who would support them when they’ll be depressed, who would pick them up first ignoring my own mental health, who would cheer them up no matter how hard it was going in  school or elsewhere, who would always live up to take any responsibility there is to take because my brothers would never do that.

    About living for two years,,, I don’t have enough money or support that would allow me to do that and still continue my education without dad’s support.Next two years are my A level’s years, and then I’m planning to get scholarship to a uni in Canada. I think that time period will give me a relieve from all this. But, is there any way you can tell me that will allow me support myself if I move out already? Please do share it

    And thank you for your time

    #292775

    Javairia
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    Dear Peter,

    Thank you for the advice.

    I was thinking of having a little talk with our guidance counselor at school. She is the nicest and most trust worthy person I’ve ever met. I’m just afraid that I’ll lose courage to take it out when I get a chance to talk to her…

    #292773

    Javairia
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    Hi anita,

    The self-hatred I’ve mentioned takes a lot of toll on me.

    You might have heard the saying, ”children are the best imitators”. So that goes 80% of this in this case. My mother had always low self-esteem. She belittelled her role and worth. And that’s why maybe she never had a nerve to take a divorce or stand up for herself with courage. I saw her growing up, and probably that’s why I’m turning out to have low self-esteem, self-hatred issues, and becoming this ‘maybe I don’t deserve it’, ‘i’m not enough’ person.

    I’ve also used self harm for about 2 years and still continue.

    That’s for it! I guess. Here’s your answer

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