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  • #376247
    Emily
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    My younger sister had project in school to write about someone who inspires her an she wrote about me and how I had a disabled son and I took care of him an that I was a nurse and she looked up to me . It’s shocked because I was a Cna and I was struggling but from her point of view I was someone she was proud of .

    #376246
    Emily
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    I never seen anybody survive and after my mom passed I thought that I would die

    because that’s the way her story ended but I fight like I did as a child but the isolation doesn’t help it puts me in a stand still and years past and I don’t accomplish anything. I’m up

    again and giving it every I got

     

    #376243
    Emily
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    When I say love myself again I mean I want to feel like I love myself again …

    • This reply was modified 4 weeks, 1 day ago by Emily.
    #376241
    Emily
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    Dear Anita ,

    I just want to love myself again .

    Growing no matter what happened when I

    went to bed at night i love myself so

    my thoughts were positive ready for

    whatever tomorrow would bring .

    In the last post I didn’t mention

    once things didn’t work out at home

    I went to look for love outside my

    house which introduced me to user

    and abusers told me what I wanted to hear

    to get what they wanted then left me and I was

    back to square one .

     

    • This reply was modified 4 weeks, 1 day ago by Emily.
    #376230
    Emily
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    Growing up I felt like no one loved me at age 11 or 12 I fell off a bike a lost my front two teeth which made me not want to go to school I was already picked bcuz I was curvy and dark skin . A lot name calling at home an in school and it hurt me I often felt like I didn’t fit in anywhere so after a while I avoided my feelings bcuz no one cared . I watched my mom be mentally and physically abused by dad and my brothers father that hurt and I always wondered why did she accept these things and she said she wanted us to have a dad bcuz her dad was never around after a while I started to dislike her bcuz I thought she didn’t love me . She’d always send me to my room if I cried she’d ignore me and make me smile I felt like I was being punished for wanting attention   She never told me she loved me . I’m sure she did . But as I child I didn’t understand that  When I was in elementary school my mom had a fight with a lunch aide bcuz she pinched me and went to jail for a year my family blamed me and tortured me  they labeled me as the problem child I became angry an distant it was the only way to protect myself

    • This reply was modified 4 weeks, 1 day ago by Emily.
    #376216
    Emily
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    The story of my life = Im afraid but Im going to do it anyway … lol

     

    #376214
    Emily
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    Dear Anita:

    Im afraid of how I might feel but im going to do it anyway .

     

     

    #376211
    Emily
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    A Beauty Supply Store .

    #376202
    Emily
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    Am I asking you to many questions?

    I have another question why are you

    curious about me ?

    Wow Anita I don’t think I ever

    expressed myself  this is going to be

    difficult

     

     

    #376200
    Emily
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    Curious why ?

    #376197
    Emily
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    How can I express myself ?

     

    #376188
    Emily
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    No I found it on google . One day in the future I plan to take painting or drawing class its on my bucket list . Since im creating a life for myself im going to include hobbies this go round if I fall in love with drawing than drawing it is but Im definitely going to give it a try , Something that I can enjoy doing in my spare time besides work and parenting .

    #376184
    Emily
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    Its been rough as long as I can remember .

    So how does this work it all starts with the daily routine ?

     

    #376180
    Emily
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    I can relate

    I thought it was just me

     

     

    #376177
    Emily
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    It is very difficult to change this emotional dynamic of short part- awakenings and long-term depression ?

    Can u go more into detail ?

     

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