Yes , I’m 30 now . I dropped out of high school in the 9th grade my dad is a recovering crack addict who spent most of my childhood in jail and is currently in jail since the year 2015 . During the years my son was alive I was a stay at home care giver so I didn’t work I collected government assistance . A couple relationships with men who didnt love me but probably because I didn’t love myself. I had another child in 2015 who’s alive and healthy . Once my son passed away the government took away all the assistance they gave me so in order to provide for my current child I had to look for work with no work history I was stressed and the family I was born into doesn’t help each other . Currently I work as a security guard . I don’t have any friends I spend a lot of time reading motivation books or i come to the tiny Buddha site to help my mood if I’m feeling down . I just feel like I need to heal because the depression and anxiety affect my income and current relationship with my 6 yr old . The plan is to find somethings to do in my spare time i purchased some fitness equipment small things like a yoga mat and a kettle bell ( I gained allot of weight with all the stress) brought a Ged practice book , and hopefully I can find a hobby like cooking or drawing to do when I don’t have to work . I’m doing my best .