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September 15, 2021 at 7:20 am #386338
Being an Empath makes life very hard for you. there all many people that are selfish and will do anything as long as it makes them feel better, without any regard of what they end up doing to another person.
Christopher sent me an email a while back saying he still liked me.
At that point i realized just how selfish he truly was. i know he definitely misses the attention and affection i gave him because he didn’t have to work for it. i gave because i always thought i will treat him the way i would want to be treated.
i don’t regret being kind to him. I do however regret that he didn’t learn anything from my actions. he is going to hurt more people despite all the love i showed him. It makes me sad.
The world has enough hurt people. We don’t need anymore to be honest. i am so grateful for these exchanges. you have no idea. i can hear myself think finally
ElizabethSeptember 15, 2021 at 6:42 am #386334
Thank you for your response. I needed to talk about what was happening to me. I am unfortunately a very private person and sharing my burdens is not easy for me. I sort of learnt early in life that people tend to use your weakness and especially your pain against you.
I found courage after writing this to seek professional help. I am now seeing a therapist and will be having my second session next weeks.
I am hopeful that i will get better.
Elizabeth.May 31, 2021 at 10:43 am #380743
One thing i have learnt struggling with depression is that your mind is the your biggest enemy. First of all you have to realize that most of the things you feel are not even real. That’s your mind jumping into protection mode and trying to protect you from what it got used while growing up. deal with whatever emotions you are feeling. don’t be afraid to let them out. be grateful you have left the abuse in the past. Go to a local YWCA. They are more helpful than you realize. Maybe a relationship is not the best thing for you at the moment. You need to redevelop a relationship with yourself. Get to know yourself all over again. Only then can you be of use to anyone else let alone be able to have a healthy relationship. What you have right now is a co-dependence on your boyfriend and that’s why he freezes up when you are going through one of your spells. It must be a lot on him too. one day at a time.. Don’t try to think way ahead. don’t plan way ahead and stop comparing yourself to others and just do you.