Thank you again for the reply Anita.

I feel better now and please correct me if I am wrong, but I think if I discuss in detail my feelings towards him and then exploring those feelings together in a therapeutic way will make me aware of the meaning of this attachment and hopefully once I develop an intimate relationship outside i will not get triggered that much as I would have understood the attachment better?

Right now, I am so afraid to even try to start an intimate relationship as I believe that i’ll screw up because of my trauma..and because i have so many patterns..I think that i’m not a relationship person.