Dear Anita,
thank you so much for asking. Means a lot to me.
I’m tired Anita. Tired of the distress, tired of not having completely forgotten the ex (I’m doing a LOT better but I don’t have answers. I still don’t know what I have lived with him and I feel anger but sometimes I relapse and miss him. So I let myself cry a little bit whenever I need. Until evertything is really washed away I guess.)
I’ve received anothr PhD rejection, there are more results to come out over the next weeks and more applications to send. I was obviously upset but see, I still need so much patience.
i’m tired of the distress at home as well. nothing moves. My mother is blind she has no idea what she is causing to me and my brother. She thinks she is right by the way she treats us. My dad now is being a lot more helpful. But he is still often sad.
So I’m tired anita… I’ve got to a point that I’ve reached my maximum. It’s been 5 months I’ve been in this situation. I mean is it ever going to change?