Hello Lakra,

Thank you so much for the time and efforts taken to read and respond to my blurting outs…..Yes, very often I feel like, I’m the one compromising and I’m giving in too much, just because, I can’t see them being unhappy or moody, just because, I denied their happiness by not saying NO to them. I know, it’s wrong or somewhat confused to behave like this, but, still my dad’s way of bringing me up or toning me up has made me into what I’ am today…I just say yes to everything and would do anything, just to see them or make them happy, many times, going out of the way to do it.. question, is? am I trying to impress upon them? or am I trying to lure them, by keeping them happy, so that they will never leave me and be with me always? even though most of the times, I’m getting manipulated and being treated like a door mat, as you said….once the job is done, I will be treated as an outsider and they hurt me by doing something, and they don’t even feel a remorse for the mistakes they have committed…

Especially, when it comes to relationship, I’m not sure, if im not able to accept people as they are and who they are and letting go of certain things, which bothers me much…or I don’t even, know, if I”m expecting too much from everyone, just because,I’m making them happy, whenever they want or need…

Your insights are very helpful and thoughtful, but won’t I alienate people, If I say no to them and they wont feel happy about it? I’m afraid that my list will grow shorter and I may loose genuine people? or am I still confused….I’m sorry, that I’m just not able to think straight at this point, since the relationship I had with her has drained me so much.. that, I cant pass a single day without being with her or think about her all the time, even though, I know, she is manipulating and hiding the truth….