Dear Gigi:

Your line above the last one: “it’s hard not to constantly think something is wrong with me”- caught my eye after reading and re-reading your two posts on this thread.

I think there is nothing inherently wrong with you. What happened is that an injury to you occurred when you were a child, an injury in the context of your relationship with your mother and/ or father (main caretaker). That injury has left you… injured. Until that injury is attended to, you will feel that there is something wrong with you.

Your posts show desperation to be attached to another person, a confusion about sex and love, that is feeling safety in being wanted sexually, as if it means, in itself, that you are loved.

Will you share about that injury, the one caused by your parent/s when you were a child? Maybe still in the present?

anita