You’re absolutely right, anita. The first post I made was largely okay for the most part and I made some good points but the people I was debating with were clearly on a different page and didn’t know where I was coming from with my concern. So I supposed to logical followup was ‘I need to show them!’ and I wrote that second post – and now I’m telling myself, doing this won’t change a single thing, you’ll only ruin everything for yourself. And that is what happened. I suppose I’m a bit of a perfectionist in the sense that I want to do everything right the first time around. This was everything but, and now I need to go back on my words and keep apologizing just to feel better and climb towards the kind of peace of mind I took for granted. You really don’t know what you have till you’ve lost it.

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