Thank you everyone, I do feel calmer about the situation now. It felt like I was grasping at straws, and that my solid foundation was crumbling at my feet. I definitely lost my spiritual balance, with no support system or safety net. You guys managed to put things into perspective again. Thank you for helping me to get back onto my feet.

Unintentionally I have been taking from various religions what resonates with my soul, and moulded it into what I now believe is my new identity. And then, I read this the other day: “My spirituality is unique to myself. I make no apologies for not fitting into a spiritual box. I create my own magic by allowing what I choose to celebrate in my life.”

I guess there are other like me…
Thank you xxx