I’m feeling extremely fragile. I appreciate the responses.

He did not come this weekend. He was in Dallas for work (2.5 hours away) but did not come here. I told him yesterday that I unequivocally cannot do this anymore. That it was his procrastination and empty promises that led me to this decision.

I also told my children last night. They were sad. I felt incredibly guilty for putting them out there to love someone and then telling them this person would no longer be in our lives.

He told me that he was coming in two weeks to propose. I told him that I’d heard that before and not to come. I even said that I need to not be in contact with him so that I can move on.

I had a totally different picture of where our life was headed (much like when my marriage of 12 years ended). I don’t know if I should keep myself from thinking about that, focus on WHY we broke up, or let myself wallow in the sadness/relief of no longer being in limbo.