Thank you, Anita for responding. I know you are probably right. I am worried and looking for him to hurt me because it’s easier.

I should start by saying I haven’t always been hurt. There are guys I’ve dated who I ended up ending things with or I’ve gone on first dates and never texted again. I feel like lately though the guys I like show interest in me and then disappear. The last guy I dated was verbal about how he was into me. And then one day he just kind of freaked out about us. I know it wasn’t personal because he was very honest about it. The boyfriend before told me after a year and a half that he wasn’t sure if he loved me anymore. The same guy who said I love you way too soon!I met a guy on a trip last year who said he wanted to get to know me and then disappeared once I gave him my number. I then went on a 6 hour date with a guy who said he would call and never did. I know that wasn’t personal either but after it happens a few times it’s hard not to take it personally or wondering what I’m doing wrong. It’s also hard to see everyone in relationships and I keep finding guys who are all in and then basically change their minds.

I also should say I don’t think about these guys anymore. Some of them hurt more than others but I know none of them were the one.

I tend to keep myself pretty distant from dating because I hate this feeling I have now. I just wish I didn’t care about this guy. What are your thoughts? Thank you! (And sorry for any errors I’m on my phone).