I’ve been struggling deeply for the past few days. After my ex received my list, he told me he is coming here to make things right. That he does not want to lose me and the kids and is willing to quit his job and move here because “that is best for all of us”, as I told him I would not move the kids away from here. He has spoken with my Dad. After their conversation my Dad feels that he is genuinely trying but is struggling to grasp the issues at hand, but is trying his best to understand and work on this.
“I woke to a flurry of text messages saying these things:

You know I love you and want t be with you and make it right for all of us. I told you I’m coming to make it right. I hope your heard and believe in me to make it right and will give me the opportunity to do so. I take responsibility for my actions and understand where we are and what you want. I said to you I am willing and WANT to make it happen. I love you with everything I have. I hope you understand leaving a job has to be done the right way so it can afford us the opportunity to get a job back in coaching in the future”

I spent about 45 minutes laying on the floor in my office sobbing today. The smallest tasks are very difficult. Taking care of my children is difficult. I want to swoop them under my arms and hug them so tight and sit with them all day. I have lost 10 pounds.