Dear lada:

When you decided it was your job to make your mother happy and proceeded with that job, you lost yourself- you lost lada. Do not take on this job again, and if you find yourself on that job- quit it! Making your mother happy is a losing proposition. It’s a lost cause. If she loved you truly, then her love for you and your love for her would have made her happy. But she is not a loving person, so she is not happy.

This is why I wrote that one day there will be someone else for you to love and be loved by.

It can’t be her, please remember this and stop trying to get water out of a rock. You will find water in a stream where water is. Not in a dry rock.

I like the au pair. I can’t wait for the day you will be moving out.

anita