@zeroxmxi

Nothing’s working. Nothing is remotely interesting or amusing. You don’t like stuff. You have no passion. There’s no “interests” anywhere.

You’re doing work. It sucks. You have money saved. But at the rate you’re going, things won’t be getting better.

You don’t get people. You don’t get women. You’re not even worthy of their time, or anyone’s time, really. You don’t belong anywhere because you don’t connect with anyone. Everyone seems so different and okay with themselves. But you’re not.

You don’t get yourself. You don’t know what you’re suppose to do or “be” as a person. It’s almost as if you’re suppose to drown in sorrow.

Except you “know” this is all you. No one’s physically or mentally controlling you. You can see you’re thinking too much. You know others have it worse, but you get to be here today on the forums. You have food, shelter, water. You should be okay, but you’re not. Maybe you’re not suppose to be drowning in sorrow. Maybe it’s your choice… And that is a dark and scary thought…