Dear Sann:

I am so sorry you had that panic attack and hope you get some help seeing the doctor. Sometimes, short term psych drugs are helpful. There was a time in 2012 that I did all I could, therapy, yoga, meditation, lots of exercise daily and all the power of will I could muster, and after a few months I gave up and went back on psych drugs (particularly Klonipin). So I know, at times it seems, there is no other solution. I am off all those drugs now since October 2013, 100% successful in that.

I very much appreciate you posting the above post just to let me know you intend to continue communicating with me. I thought about you yesterday and this very morning, thinking you might not come back to this thread, or any other simply for being scared. And to my peasant surprise, you are back.

Unfortunately you are afraid, but that is to be expected, having grown in with a mother like that. You did not harm me at all. I felt distress but I learned something, have a deeper understanding thanks to you. It is not only that you didn’t harm me- you helped me.

Sure hope you will heal, get better. It is possible, happening for me. Till your next post-

Take care of yourself and … thank you.

anita