It seems to be about being real, with them.
I didn’t tell them about the sickleave, but with other things. Like the tent, it is not the most glamorous house, and they weren’t very impressed, but i told them that i am happy there and that it is their problem if they are not happy.
The tent, interesting that you ask this, because she told me that it is cold in there, i told here that i am warm and that i even sleep without my clothes and am warm in there. She told me that i was lying. Ok, if she says so.
So, Anita, yes I am warm in there. I just wish that i tidied a bit more, but that’s something i can work on 🙂
I have a lovely sleeping bag, and sleep good in there. It’s a few weeks, of course it’s a bit annoying sometimes not to have my own room, but i think it’s a good experience. I learn to find solutions to be alone, and i have to connect with people more, i don’t have a room to hide in, and that’s perhaps quite good for me.

And the other part about being real, i answered her a few times, which is extremely scary for me, because the rule has always been to shut up and let her have it her way, don’t make her angry, and don’t go against her. Tonight i raised my voice (i don’t really think that it was yelling, i’m not sure of it) and told her i was fed up with her quarrelling. That was a big drama. I am scared for tomorrow. But I think it was a good step, to finally start to stand up for myself. So Anita, you say it is not helping me, but i wonder if that is true. It might be helping me, by breaking some of the patterns. I don’t know. I will probably see a bit more clearly when it is over.
Thank you so much for your support, Anita.
Time for bed now.
I think i am messing up my own thread, when they are back home, i will see if there is somthing else here that is waiting for a reply. Now there is enough to occupy my mind.