Trying to figure out how people have faith that they will find a suitable partner. My birthday is coming up in late August. I would absolutely love to be in some sort of relationship at that point. The thing is, that doesn’t feel like typical goal stuff.

I don’t really have much faith, in either a higher power or in humanity. Started out Methodist, now pretty much a nihilist atheist. Particularly in the realm of moral nihilism. Kind of strange given what I do.

I so want to believe that there is somebody for me out there. Right now, there are few things more important to me than finding that special someone. Live in a town where men out number women on a stupid scale. Anyone of any quality, assuming they are not terrified to come out here, gets snapped up pretty fast. My qualities are inner, not much to talk about outerwise.

So, how does one develop faith in good outcomes in this are?