If I’m better than why am I alone? Why can’t I attract someone but they can? Why are they always the superior choice to me? What’s so wrong with me that I’m incapable of finding love? If I’m better than they are I should have the same luck- no BETTER luck at finding love than they do. Heck, I should be able to actually find and nurture love rather than conning and manipulating some poor person into staying with me when they should leave.

Why can’t I do that? Why am I not good enough for anyone? My mother sent me away because I was broken, my family keeps me at arms length because they have no desire to show me compassion why am I the one who doesn’t deserve love when everyone else is so callous? Nothing in life os random. Everything has a rhyme and reason to it. Everything has a deliberate beginning and end and cause and effect. The universe is not random, it ia founded on order abd reason. Why am I alone and devoid of love if I legitimately am worthy of it? Why are people who are utterly despicable capable of attaining what I can’t? If I’m better than them reality should reflect that assessment but it doesn’t. Why?

Why won’t anyone let me love them? Why aren’t I good enough for anyone?