Hey *dbielawski, i can completely sympathize with you as i have felt that way exactly many a time! I did notice when the depression fog clears you can think a little clearer about things and have a different perspective. At the moment i think you need to be kind to yourself and do what you need to do to start feeling better. If that means curling up in your pjs and watching movies for a day SO BE IT! im still learning this one. The world doesnt fall apart if we have a down day, its hard to shake the guilt though. I cant give you medical advice obviously because im not a dr, but in my own personal experience with medication, talk it through thoroughly with your dr or a councilor, google wasn’t very helpful for me as i just read all the bad side affects that scared me even more! I would never say to stop a medication when you are starting to feel better, not until all the underlying issues are resolved and theres a weaning process when you and your dr have decided its time to come of them.

I take a medication called Lexapro which has worked wonders for me, i had a lot of help from my mum when i started these meds as she has dealt with mental illness her whole life and knows alot about them. im not keen to change my medication because they do help alot. When the most recent dr i saw prescribed me Prozac i went and spoke to the chemist about my concerns… he was really really helpful! and im glad i did because apparently you cannot take prozac and lexapro at the same time because they are in the same group. the pharmacist advised to up my lexapro by 5mg ( this was something i had discussed with the dr that put me on the lexapr in the first place, as the backup for if i did get PND) so i knew i could do it.. NEVER SELF MEDICATE.

I can understand you would feel scared about changing meds because when you start them its not real nice and sometimes GPs dont explain this. Is there any chance you can go and see a Psychiatrist, they have the training to be able to prescibe meds after a thorough consult with you and how you are feeling? you can go and see a dr and ask for a refferal?

also do you have somebody that can support you through all of this, its much easier when you have help from somebody!! And please feel free to chat to me if you need to vent! im quite happy to walk the journey with you.