Hello
Am I wrong for wanting some sort of Karma to come back and kick him in the butt- Yes.

Should I try to remain friends for the relationship he has with my kids? YES and No. You do NOT need to be friends with this man, but you need to do your best to maintain a cordial relationship.

I would ask you one thing: What is it you believe about yourself that makes his treatment of you and his behavior towards you acceptable? The issue is NOT about him and what he does or doesn’t do. People come into our lives to teach us a lesson. What is it you have learned about yourself by being with this man? Based on your post I would be lead to believe you do not respect yourself, value yourself of love yourself.

I think you know what you need to do, but maybe you aren’t ready to do it? Look, I get it…I have been there before. In all of my relationships I did 90% and they did 10%, but that’s on ME. I chose them. I allowed it.

Take some time and space and yes…focus on yourself. But, to change you have to be ready and really want it and believe you deserve better. Until then you will keep trying to go back to him. I wish you all the best. I know how awful it is to be in your situation. Check out my blog …which was written for issues like this. http://www.acinglife.com
Carrie