Hi Anita!

Wow… I’m left in awe on how you analyzed it.

But that is correct, I guess we aren’t like twins. Even though we are still so very much alike yet not. He is rather proud to call me his twin.

Maybe your right about that. The fact he wants a girlfriend but is scared of it ending. He keeps telling me that all good things must come to an end. And they way he describes his ex’s were that 50% were bad 50% were good, and the good ones got separated on mutual terms and if he got a chance to be with them again he would. I guess this is the part were my heart sank.
I understand that our arrangement was that of friends with benefits, but I didn’t realise that talking from dawn till dusk would make me so attached to him. I even explained that to him at one point, that I’d like my space so I could stop liking him, but he didn’t let me.

To be honest, I’m seriously confused. I dont know how to proceed anymore. I tried not having any expectations of it becoming anything more, but… he tells me things that a guy in love would say, then turn around and push me away with harsh comments(not all at once).
I enjoy what we have, we dont go on dates but I’m okay with that, I simply enjoy his company.. so why does he simply go 180°.
This is probably where his fear of not wanting to lose some one but why does he insist that I go on dates and act a little jealous when I do?
I seriously dont know what to think of this anymore, its been 4 months… and I feel like I dont want to be like all the other girls he has dated, but he just seems scared to want to take my heart and give me his..

Thank you!