@newlife123 I definitely see that his friends were the most practical, comforting and familiar option. If anything I was glad he had that outlet since I wasn’t easily accessible. It makes sense. For me it wasn’t the friend thing that bothered me, but the secret thing.
My problem with it all was that I was hoping that what we shared and his feelings for me were enough to see me as his champion and not an added stress. It’s sad to me he saw me as the latter.