Have come to realize that I got lied to when I let me mother move out her, I got lied to by the woman I cared about, I get lied to on a daily basis on the job. I have also realized that when I am giving, it comes back to bite me.

now back to the same dull pain and joyless existence, except with a family member so won’t leave, and who never had any interest in leaving. All that I got for my kindness was 1.5 years of false promises and a by financial outlay once I figure out what to do. I am probably going to have to be the one that moves.

I don’t really have pleasure in the things I used to do.