I meant like, when her sister was directing all those accusations at me I didn’t respond back strongly or anything. I tried to keep all my replies mild other than the one where I asked her not to message me until she put aside her notions… after that I still sent her an unconditional apology if she felt bad (and got no reply). I guess it wasn’t totally submissive but I did try my best not to lose my temper or say anything violent.

Softening her stance is the hardest thing imaginable to me. She was never like this before; I don’t understand how she’s become so heartless and stubborn all of a sudden. I admit I committed faults too but I’m doing my best to make up for them now, genuinely. Can she not give me just one more chance in that regard. 🙁 I wish she could understand that it’s not like I keep attempting to make up with everyone who leaves me… if it were anyone else in her place, I’d have backed away by now. There are thousands of girls out there in the world (in her sister’s own words – “you have so many girls calling you brother, so enjoy life with them and leave my sis alone, goodbye”), and if I am still not having anybody but her in that place in my heart, it is out of genuine love. Lust or obsession can never provide the motivation to keep up at what appears to be a losing battle. I wish she understood.