thanks a lot anita;) the weather was great this morning, quite breezy and i had a great run and on the way home, the sunrise was beautiful. i also did a meditation in which i told myself that i was strong and that i imagined a stick figure being the inner bully and me setting a fire and burning it to ashes. i also called upon the buddha and the angels and asked them to take my hand and help me spread my wings to learn life skills. i had a dream in which i was floating on a cloud, that i was being a scientist in a lab and i was paying my insurance and filing my forms on time and i also had a vision of me filling a form w-4. also the buddha and angels helped me become part of the universe and i felt myself merge with the buddha and the angels providing me with wings so i could fly and the inner bully going up in flames. i heard a voice tell me “you are part of the divine soul, you are healed. you are one with your soul and have dropped free from all physical limitations. you are all-knowing, all-beautiful and one with the divine.” my element has always been fire, but i lost some of my fiery confidence, but its coming back especially since i can throw a protective fiery bubble around me to protect against negativity and i also have a good balance with the air element in which i use it to help me feel lightweight and also cool in the summer while the fire element helps me when it is cold. this dream made me more reassured about my life and today i am quite confident about myself and there is no inner bully today. usually it nags me about my bodily appearance, my athletic skills or my intelligence, but today i am free. i still enjoy being alone most of the time and referring to others when i need to, but i tend to be shy around places with a lot of people. even though i have a new inner confidence, it is still on its rise and i need time to myself, also i find that i like quiet places because i can think and meditate. i want to find my spiritual self and spend time with others who are also working on the path to enlightenment and i think i have made progress. I feel quite sad about reading the life of Julie de Lespinasse because she had two sad loves one died of tuberculosis and the other married someone else. i read one of her quotes and it made me wonder about her so i looked her up. here is the quote “the logic of the heart is absurd.” a lot of her quotes have to deal about tragic love and she was one of the woman of the Enlightenment. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jeanne_Julie_%C3%89l%C3%A9onore_de_Lespinasse
http://thinkexist.com/quotation/the_logic_of_the_heart_is/156696.html

also i feel bad for 89-Year-Old Ying-Tsang Ng who has to spend her time looking for scraps at 10 am and has been missing since february. there is a person named tay who used to give food to her in brooklyn nyc. Ng also gave the inedible foods to animals to eat and would share the extra food with other poor people.

on the lighter side, andrew is helping me with my ap biology work:D i also received a 35/40 on my essay on the 8 themes of biology. dave is also helping donate some things to a church to help those in need and he and andrew are helping each other with their school work. here is a trivia quiz, i used my intuition and got everyone right. also i have a pretty good memory especially for science and although it’s been a year i still remember most of the rules for the written test 92% on the first try. here is the trivia (from Coffee news):

1. How many playing cards are in a standard deck?
2. Was the first hot air balloon flight in the 1780s, 1880s or 1930s?
3. T/F: The world’s smallest country by landmass is Vatican City?
4. “Zoo” is short for what descriptive term?
5. In stock trading, a falling market is called ________.

I’ll post the answers later.