Hey rideirehood,
You say you are feeling all this anxiety as exams approach, yet the only thing you enjoy is tutoring ninth graders. You are still so young… perhaps you are in the wrong field? I am a 9th grade teacher and I find my job very rewarding. Make sure you choose to do something you want to do, and not something that will make you overwhelmed or unhappy your whole life. We tend to cling to the negative… try to allow as much positive into your life as you can.
Depression often means you are moving away from something you should be working toward. Perhaps the reason why you are not attracted to others is because you have not found the one you’re meant to be with yet. You’re 19! Decide on the person you want to become, make a list of goals and break down the steps each one will take. Each morning, ask yourself how you can move closer toward your goals today. I think it also helps to focus on how you can help others.
As for whether things get better as you are older, I really am not sure how to answer that. I think a lot of it depends on the direction you choose to take. Good luck!
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