Dear Anita,

I myself never thought of finding so much support and, unfortunately, so many people going through similar situations. I am very glad my words did not only lift up some of the weight I feel on my shoulders, but brought some light into your life.
As you said exactly, that is my way of taking some control over all that is going on inside my head whenever food comes along. It is knowing that life is great and full of many situations in which I will mostly have no control over (pregnancy here pops up as an amazing example). What I do control is my actions: and if I was able to stop smoking cigarettes (I was a 7 year smoker) in the most stressful situations, I will too control my feelings on this obsession with food and weight, no matter hiw skinny or fat I get.
Yesterday and I say this publicly, my boyfriend left the house. He packed a huge suitcase and he left, saying that he could no longer withstand living both with me and my anxiety, having “no room in the bed” for himself. Since last night, I’ve come to realise how empty I really feel and how I use food as a distractiom or cover up for it. Since he left I haven’t done anything but eating. I can’t entertain myself with anything or feel deeply his absense.
Today I realised finally, that I have to start filling up my own voids with me – finding things I’m good at, that I take interest in, I enjoy doing and redescovering who I am…

So I guess that we all have out mechanism broken Anita, and we might all work in different levels. What is important is that the solution you find fits you 🙂 and truly helps you in pursuit of who you are!

Mary K x