Thank you for the advice for the baggage reclaim- I’ll look it up. I will say my Ex didn’t treat me bad. We had a great 2 + years- yes the last few months had some moments that neither of us would agree were our best selves, but nothing that would even come close to being disrespectful or mean. He started becoming a little more aloof and distant which hurt me so I became more sensitive and I wouldn’t say “needy” but definitely not my usual independent self. I think that’s also what is hard for me is that it was a good relationship overall with respect, trust, fun times, but then I also have to remind myself that if it was that good he and I would have fought harder for it.
Being 100% no contact has been good AND bad at the same time. I know my healing has come along quicker, but I also think if there was a chance to reconcile we would have to have at least some line of communication open don’t you think?