Dear flyby:

Interesting you lived the reality of my example.

By a totally unaware, in the midst of a psychotic episode I mean someone who will commit a crime in front of a police officer standing right there, not being aware of one’s actions and consequences. Not being able to remember the episode later. This is uncommon.

What you are writing about is the common version of not being aware. There is some awareness though. In my example of committing a criminal act in front of a police officer, it would be a person committing a crime near a police station because of being impulsive and “having to” do it but hoping to get away, hoping no one is watching. There is a memory of the incident later.

Other than criminality, limited awareness is the norm. Who is completely aware? One in a billion people, perhaps. I am becoming more and more aware and there is always, so far, more for me to become aware of. And we are often aware of the unawareness of others in their personal lives while remaining limited in our awareness of our own personal lives.

People see what they want to see; they don’t see what they don’t want to see. This is business as usual and it is so when seeing what-is brings about anxiety. And we will do anything to avoid the awareness of fear. So we close our eyes and pretend the monster is not there.

Awareness is a wonderful thing, amazing, invigorating, if one can handle the fear involved.

More of your thoughts? Anytime. I like this correspondence.

anita