Hi Anita

Yes I was very alone when I was young. While other children are socializing with each other I just sat on my own, during recess or lunch hour. I remembered I dreaded the free time after lunch, since that means I would loiter on my own in the playground.
It didn’t change until I was almost a teen.
And I agree I should take good care of myself and be at ease. I have been very analytical on my own problem and been jumping to conclusion. I realized the problem is, I know what is happening in my head and have been convincing myself. i.e. to move on, it’s over etc. and that actually stresses myself, even more.
I would try to just let these go and see if I can feel everything, however scary it can seem. i think that’s the way that I can align everything together again.

Thanks Anita
Appreciate your respond and support all the way

Chau