yea Anita, I think you are right on with this and appreciate the hope you have given me that I can maybe start moving towards more healthy interactions without therapy since I’m really not receptive to that in this moment (don’t feel like I have the time, finances, energy and not really sure I *need* it). I have found that when I am intentionally not being reactive and am more mindful, obviously I feel better and am able to communicate better without feeling guilty afterwards or out of control. It’s easy to let myself react and just use the excuse that I am an emotional person but I don’t want to continue doing this to the detriment of myself and my relationships. Something I need to continue to practice. Thanks Anita 🙂