Thanks, Anita for your reply! Everybody who has met him with me especially my parents have noticed that he is “not loving” that’s why they don’t like him. He told me that our relationship just collapsed and its irreversible. I blame myself for that for not being understanding or accepting of what he can offer me at this time (because he said he is trying to improve). I am the eldest and only girl of 3 children, so somehow I was spoiled by my parents and brothers. So maybe I’m just expecting too much from him. I told him I made him my world. I drop everything that I’m doing for him. I leave the hospital, travel from manila to Maine (I’m not counting) but that’s because I love him. I defied my parents every time I go to Maine. My parents are very conservative and they don’t get the concept of divorce and of me going to Maine instead of him coming to manila. I relayed this to him and asked him if he doesn’t want to “sell” himself to me and my family. He said its either I take him as he is or I leave. This was in april. So in June when this kind of situation happened again about him not being “affectionate and attentive” that when I broke up with him. It’s difficult for me because he hasn’t taken my apology, no second chances and I really feel that he is a loss to me. It’s been 2 months now and I haven’t heard from him. It’s just so weird that we have all of a sudden become history. I hope he realized to forgive me, that if he felt I gave our relationship up easily, I regret that and I apologize for that and I hope he’ll give me the chance to be more understanding and accepting of who he is. Partly, I am reliever of this “no contact” rule because it makes me think clearer but unfortunately I am panicking because we are losing our connection very quickly. We are not even friends. I am torn between moving on and holding on. Then I will tell myself after that I will just have to let go and let God. Am I wrong? What else can I do?