Dear neng:

You are welcome. I will continue to reply every time you post here. Try to accept and absorb the reality of the situation. No matter how intensely you wish and desire fantasy, reality will not accommodate your wishing and desiring. Reality will be what it is. Accept that he is not emotionally attached to you. Accept the nature of your attachment to him.

Reality will feel better for you if you see it for what it is, accept it best you can and relax into it. There is no other option (other than momentary escape into daydreaming and make-believe) for mental well being.

anita