CMI,

Thank you again form your reply. Yes, I think I will dig more into that (SS). I have written down LOTS of things I would like to say, but no I have not called or mailed it. I am sticking to NC. You are correct. Since he NEVER can really find fault in his own behavior it would probably be pointless. And even though he is not really a MEAN person, he may be “mean” and say something like well just move on then. Which wouldn’t feel good. Yes, and I DO NOT want to get sucked back in again which he is VERY good at doing with his half-hearted apologies. Yes, I do not feel like I expect a reply to a call or letter but not knowing if he heard/listened to a voicemail or read the letter would probably bother me, so you are right. Yes, as the days go by I am slowly forgetting about the need for closure. I have to live with the fact that I just may NEVER get it and even if I did it may not be the closure I WANT. Yeah My close friends and family have also suggested therapy and I just may look into that. I definitely do want to speed my healing as this pain has been horrible. I tried to create a stand alone tread on the topic but I wasn’t sure how to do it. I did post on here but I’m sad to say I don’t know where it “went.” Thank you again.
I am trying! Yes I can!!

Butterfly