Thanks Kat – yes it is a big change and I can’t help feeling I’ve failed and keep failing in everything I try – however, at least I try that is the main thing. I am not someone to sit back and let things happen. Although now I feel like I am & powerless because I can’t make a decision in moving forward. I have a week until my placement starts and am really unsure – partly due to financial reasons. But if I don’t take it I am then just waiting until I can find a job no matter how hard I’m trying.

My other concern is if I don’t take the place and I end up in just another dead end job, am I missing out on better opportunity with the teaching with regards skills it can give me etc?

I’m not expecting life to be perfect, I’m just fed up of feeling like this!