Dear Anita
LOA-law of attraction
I don’t wanna attract the same problems in the next relationship. That’s why I asked you about the LOA.

Everything started with his lying to me. He went to a “dealer” and did some things. At the beginning of our relationship I said that, if he go again on that road with it. I will leave him.
And he did. After two weeks he decided to tell me. I felt so betrayed. He knew that he was lying to me and he did it anyway.
After that he started to change. He would called me with names, on English something like stupid. Even when my parents were there. I told him that it’s bothering me, but he didn’t stop. After that he started to change his mind. Like he don’t wanna family anymore. He don’t wanna live with me. Sometimes when he become so angry with me, he would said that he will hurt himself if I don’t answer. Everything was my fauilt. I didn’t understand him.
Like I wrote I got sick from his word two times. Like I would be in bed, because I would get a temperature.
We were like on a roller coaster. He could bring me so low. I would be depressed. He was losing it. I was losing him. I couldn’t even talk to him. I was losing the person I love. He become someone I didn’t know.
Last year as I wrote we had situation with picture-screenshot. I don’t wanna write it again. It hurt that I didn’t end that. It hurt that I let him do that. Like he convinced me that I did wrong. I deserved it. I deserved his behavior.
I didn’t how would he react on something. Will he become angry or will he become my-old boyfriend.

I know all that. I know what he done. But I somehow think he changed. I was so convicted that he would not do anything to hurt me. He cares for me. But apparently not.
Sorry but I really have “tennis” match in my head.