Hi helleia,
It sounds like you have an Artist’s Soul. I don’t think being messily creative is a bad thing. It’s just the clean up that makes us think something’s wrong with us. It took me a month to clean out my Library. One month!! Yes, I was messy, but I did find real nuggets and treasures I had created.
The internet addiction, yeah, I have to watch myself too. For example, I only post on this forum once a day. Another website I do the same thing. Same with Netflix. One show. And Games. One game. Moderation is awesome.
With people, you have to go where your heart leads you. If you are honest with yourself and only hang out with your favorite people in a group setting you should have a good time. Don’t seek to hang out with people because you think you “should”. And I’d rather have people reject the Quirky Me right off the bat than them only see the Conventional Me forever. You’ll find your tribe, don’t worry!
Blessings,
Inky
Though I run this site, it is not mine. It's ours. It's not about me. It's about us. Your stories and your wisdom are just as meaningful as mine. 