Hey inky and anita!Thank you for replying! I guess I was confusing pre-existing patterns and feelings as new because I was just becoming aware of them. with regards to the smoking, I’ve started doing more of that..it feels justified almost ? If that makes sense because if I have to deal with all this pain I might use something b to make me feel better. The stress eating has stopped though. I guess I know I should move on from this thought process, but I’m enjoying the rebellion.
Best and love,
Me