My dearests,

thank you for your input. From the way you guys react, I see that I should make a case for the man that I’m with. There’s plenty to say, but here’s a little:

– He’s two years older than me, with a crazy family history (a lot of abandonment, one of the parents ending up in a psychic institution, while he was still a teen, and left to take care of himself with a family debt. He is hence very insecure and, well, has other issues.
But we all do. We all have issues. But behind those issues he is a very sweet man.

– He’s the kind, that can actually stop a baby crying from just taking him into his hands.
He’s loving, loyal and charming. Just not very fortunate.

– Ever since he got into my life, I’ve never seen a ++ on our little ‘family budget’. I’m not the wisest when it comes to money,
It’s really rather tiring. We’re at a point where my personal funds would be invested in our not-yet-profitable business, but that will be postponed if I leave.

EVER since the talk about my leaving got real, he started taking me out more, god damn, he even cleaned the dishes and started talking about some future plans.
as in:
~what would’ve happened, if I stayed~
or:
~what’ll happen if I only leave for a month or two~

No reasoning on the full period yet. I’m trying to avoid a conflict, and postponing THE TALK. Which might end in me packing my bags for good, if he continues to hold his grounds.

WHYYY ARE PEOPLE SO UNREASONABLE !!!!